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Jumi had been listening to Kei’s sweet voice with a smile until he stopped playing and went down on his knee. He grabbed Jumi’s hand and spoke out.......
“Jumi! I love you! Can you be someone who stays next to me until the end of time?”
Jumi’s expression was suddenly changed. She exclaimed.......
“Kei!!!”
Kei smiled and spoke to Jumi while staring straight into her eyes......
“Can you accept my feeling?”
Jumi responded.....
“Kei! Actually, I... I....”
Jumi seemed to want to say something to Kei but she couldn’t because she’s afraid that her words might hurt his feeling. Suddenly Kei said to her with a smile.......
“Jumi! That’s ok! You can have some times to decide. I’m not in a rush for the answer.”
“No Kei! I can’t let you endure with that feeling anymore.”
She looked at him and continued.....
“Ever since I started to know you until now, you’ve been such a great friend to me. And I’ve always wished to have you as my great friend until the end of time. I’m so sorry Kei! I.... I... can’t become someone that you’ve wanted me to be.”
Kei stared at Jumi with eyes full of painfulness. He responded.....
“Why? Can you just tell me the reason? Or you’ve got someone in your heart already?”
“Kei! In my heart you’re my best friend and nothing can change that. I’m so sorry!”
Jumi said and walked away, without realizing she had dropped a book from her blanket on the grass when she stood up. Meanwhile, Kei was clenching his both fists and closing his eyes to the truth that was nothing but breaking his heart into pieces. He turned around and saw a book on the grass. Kei was sure that it must be Jumi’s. He picked it up and took a look at its cover. Immediately, a photo fell off the book. Kei bended down and picked it up. It was a picture of a boy and a girl sitting on swings and holding each other’s hands. Kei looked at the photo for a second and suddenly recognized the girl in the photo. She was none other than Jumi. He had no intention to look into that book at all but that photo just made him curious. And his curiosity brought him to open that book slowly. The first page was shown and it was something which had been written about memory. The second page was a picture of a boy and a girl riding a bicycle together, which had been drawn beautifully. The third page was a picture of a boy and a girl watching stars together. There were many more pictures of a boy and a girl being together in the book. Kei kept on opening until he reached a page which had been written as “Jumi’s diary entry 2nd, Jan, 2003” ((Today Joon read me a fairy tale. It’s called “Sleeping Beauty”........)). Kei turned to the next page and it’s another Jumi’s diary entry ((I was really scared. But my prince charming was the one who rescued me. The warm feeling he gave me seemed to be bringing my frightfulness away. Joon! You've never known that you're the one who always give me the strength to move on......)). He turned to the next page ((Today Joon came to rescue me again. I'm sorry Joon! I unintentionally lie to you. That's because it's really hard for me seeing you're hurt. Joon! You’re the only person who knows I’m crying, even under the falling rain. Thanks for the song and piggy ride............)). Kei kept on turning the book to the next and next page with a blank expression until he reached a page which was also Jumi’s diary entry ((................Joon! I'm not sure if I will be able to see your face again or not. But all I wish is to be with you, to see your smile. Even I'm leaving you, but my heart is with you. I'm taking our memories along with me and treasure it deep down in my heart. I'm taking everything that reminds me of you. Goodbye Joon.... Goodbye.....)). The next page was another Jumi’s diary entry ((Diary! He's finally back! He really is back! This is not a dream. Joon is back. It's been 7 years since the last time I saw him. He hasn't changed at all. He still keeps the smile on his face as usual. But the only thing he's changed is he doesn't remember me anymore......)). Kei kept on reading until he reached a page which was written as “Jumi’s diary entry 3rd , Feb, 2011” ((For all these times, I had been confusing that I’m still a part of your life, still someone important to you, still someone you care and protect. It’s hard to wake up from this confusion because in my heart, you’re still that someone, someone whom I don’t want to lose and someone who is my endless memory....)). After reading that page, a teardrop dripped on Kei’s hand. Meanwhile his tears had been flowing non-stop on his face. Kei felt like his heart stopped beating because the pain was too strong for him to endure........................
Jumi walked into the room slowly and found out that Rena had already fallen asleep. She walked noiselessly toward her bed and lied down. Jumi thought back of the sadness in Kei’s eyes when he had looked at her. It just caused her to feel guilty out of sudden. She tried to close her eyes but it was just unable to stop that feeling. Jumi was also hurt to see the pain in Kei’s eyes because all she’s ever wanted was people, who are important to her, to be happy....................
Early morning, Jumi woke up while Rena was still sleeping. After getting ready, she put on warm clothes and the pink gloves. Jumi dragged her blanket from her bed and suddenly turned surprised because her diary wasn’t there. She had been trying to look for it around the room but she still couldn’t find it at all. Meanwhile, something suddenly came into her mind. She was sure that it must have been dropped somewhere on the grass field. She ran out of the room very quickly, toward the grass field. Jumi had been looking for it all around in the cold weather of winter, until someone walked toward her and said.......
“Jumi! Are you looking for this?”
Jumi turned around and exclaimed.....
“Kei!!!!”
She looked at the book is his hand and said......
“That... that book....”
Kei smiled and responded.......
“It must be yours, right?”
He said and handed it back to Jumi. She took it back from Kei. He then said.....
“I’m so sorry to look into it without your permission.”
Jumi was startled by Kei’s words. Kei continued.......
“Looks like I’ve already found out the reason why you can’t accept my feeling for you. Is it because of him?”
Jumi looked at Kei with eyes full of tears. They seemed to be ready to fall down anytime. She responded.....
“You’re right! I can’t accept your feeling because my heart has been with him already.”
“I’m regret that I came into your life too late. If I have come just a little bit earlier, I wouldn’t have let your heart go to him.”
Jumi’s tears started to fall down. She spoke out with guiltiness......
“Kei! I’m sorry! I’m truly sorry!”
Kei walked toward her and wiped her tear slowly. He looked at her and responded with a smile......
“It’s ok, Jumi! You’re not wrong for that.”
During a winter day, a guy was wiping a girl’s tears with a smile under the snowfall, without caring that his tears were also flowing all over his face.............
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After a busy day, it’s already 5 in the evening. Everyone was going back to their rooms in order to get ready for dinner and party. Jumi walked into her room and put her stuffs on the bed. As she walked into the bathroom, Rena walked in slowly and noiselessly. She took Jum’s diary, which was underneath her blanket, and opened it slowly in order to look into it. After finding out what’s inside that book, Rena was suddenly startled and dropped the book out of her hand. Meanwhile, she heard the sound of the bathroom door. Rena suddenly picked the book up and put it back under Jumi’s blanket. As Jumi came out, she had a look at Rena, who was sitting on the bed expressionlessly. Jumi said to her....
“Rena! Aren’t you taking a shower? It’s almost time for dinner already.”
“Um yeah....”
Rena grabbed her towel and walked into the bathroom. Jumi got her stuffs into a bag and walked out of the room. Rena had been watching her until she got out. She clenched her fist and said alone......
“I don’t care who she is. I will never let Joon go to her easily.”
As Jumi was walking, someone suddenly threw a snow ball at her. She turned around and saw Kei, who was smiling sweetly at her. He spoke out cordially.....
“Snow ball fight!”
Jumi smiled and threw the snowball back at Kei. They had been playing and smiling happily while Joon had been watching them from a distance. Immediately, Rena walked toward him and said.....
“Joon! Dinner’s ready! Let’s go to the hall.”
He sighed and followed her to the hall. After Joon walking away, Rena took a look at the direction where Joon had been looking at earlier. As she found out that he had been looking at Jumi, her expression was suddenly changed.......
After having dinner, everyone was preparing to play some games. As for Jumi, she walked out of the hall to a place, where was kind of quiet and peaceful. She took a seat on a bench and looked straight forward at the blank night sky which there was no stars and the moon........
“What are you looking at? It’s just a blank sky.”
Someone took a seat next to her and spoke out. She turned to him and responded.....
“I’m looking for the stars.”
Joon smiled and responded.....
“You can’t see the stars in winter night.”
Jumi replied....
“They are there but they’re trying to hide behind the cloud. I might be able to see them if I try looking for them.”
Joon laughed a bit and spoke to her.....
“You’re like a kid. Anyway, why are you coming out alone? You should have joined them in the games.”
Jumi smiled and replied......
“Um..... It seemed fun. But I’ve never played those kinds of game so it’s kind of hard to join them.”
“Ah... I see. By the way aren’t you cold being out here?”
Jumi responded.....
“Just a little bit but I can endure with it. Today, the weather seems a little colder than yesterday. There was even snowfall.”
Joon responded.....
“Why are you alone? You should have called your friend to come with you.”
Jumi replied with a smile......
“They were having fun. I dare not to disturb them.”
The atmosphere was quiet for a moment before Joon speaking out......
“Jumi! I’m sorry!”
Jumi suddenly turned to him and exclaimed......
“Joon!!! Why...... Why are you apologizing?”
Joon looked at her and said....
“I’m sorry for having been away from you. I’m sorry for unable to be with you when you’re alone.”
“Joon! You... You shouldn’t be sorry for that.”
Joon responded while staring straight at Jumi........
“I hate to see you lonely but I.... I... I couldn’t even rid your loneliness.”
Jumi smiled and responded....
“Don’t worry! I’m ok with that. I might seem lonely but I get used to it already. Being alone is not lonely after all.”
“Are you speaking that out of your true feeling?”
Jumi’s expression was changed a little bit. Joon continued......
“You’re saying you’re ok with that but do you know that your eyes say the different thing?”
Jumi smiled and responded.....
“Even though it’s so, you shouldn’t have been sorry for that.”
Joon looked at her and replied.....
“I wouldn’t have cared nor even been sorry if that was other people who’s lonely. But the one who’s lonely is you and you’re more special to me than other people do.”
Jumi suddenly turned to Joon and looked at him with a surprised expression. They had been alone and talking, without realizing Rena had been watching them from a distance with anger. She clenched her fists and stared at them angrily................
It was about 10 o’clock at night and Jumi walked back into the room. Meanwhile Rena was sitting with her leg crossed on the bed. As Jumi was preparing to go to bed, Rena spoke out......
“What is the exact relationship between you and Joon?”
Jumi turned to her and responded......
“Why do you ask about that out of sudden?”
Rena suddenly yelled.....
“Just answer me!”
Jumi clenched her fist and answered.....
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